Day without him...

Start from 6/8/2010 i think im alone, He not besides me anymore...
No hug, No kiss, No love, No care, No quarrel, No money & No mentally support..
Can i face this alone?? Some might say cannot, some might think is possible,,but take time..

But for me i think need a longer time..We been couple long time ad..on Off on Off almost 6 years d..Such a long time...>> but what i feel is when he want he just do..never really think about me..if i question him, He will say " have u do the same thing to me also??" At that moment im speechless,, He always wanted a fair relationship...but is it possible?
Most people see how He treat me nice...But i think no 1 will see me treat him nice..Perhaps I don't treat him NicE??

I just don't want to give him that time, i never thk like don't want to give him..But...When the moment He say" arr, do ur self lahh" this 1 really hurt...what the thing happen is im diugut from a perpon i love & who say that love me...that moment He really challenge my dignity..even u give me a Diamond i also need to think Think twice..
Count 1-5 to gv me 1 more chance?? ...5 years plus equal to counted 5.... OMG...

" U over the limit! I never expect ur attitude is this bad. Dont blame me what i going to do next. U seriously change my impression on u! Good bye"

Before i reply Him..i think "is ok Chanel...just a assignment, u can do it,, after u finish this, it mean not exactly must depends on him...Hmm...you can do it"

"Sorry to make u feel tht way. Anyway ths is me, i dun like diugut frm u. Im nt going to explain much,, pls noted tht u also change my impression on u. Mayb wat u say is correct, often say it, it will bcm a prayers..but u trust or nt, is up to u, im nvr pray for tht.. Nice word i duno how to say,, but thx for evythg tht u gave me,, much much appreciate it tht u wont reliase.. i thk we wont hv our anniversary anymore..Even once.. Good bye & take care."

I study..I doing my work...Im also wait his call...But it nvr happen...Im sad Im tears drop..no 1 realize..I dun others know...I want be strong n stronger...
YES...im done my assgnmt w/o him...but when tht moment im done, i hope he with me at that moment..i want get praise from him...but so sorry, it wont happen..

I cant imagine what he doing now,,may be having class,,eating,, go jalan tunku abdul rahman...(i check on him) watever up to him lahh...

Before sleep thinking of him,,,after wake up thinking of him...duno how long this situation will continued, but i trust 1day it will be fine..

3 day nvr contact me at all...I miss him...please give me strength..


xoxoxoxo,
€haNellE

RounD RoUnD KL.....

..Oik...is morning ad...wake up go kai kai ohh...
planning to go Aquaria KLCC....






Nxt round...PutrajayA



xoxoxoxo,
€haNellE

HaI....hAi... zOo nEgArA....I'm coming...

I become the ZoO neGarA volunteer on 13th May 2010. It is one of the activities for my leadership subject.. ohh well, me & my members have fun and tired over there...

The day before we depart, i only sleep for 2 & half hours... My dear was accompany me the whole.
day.. day--> night--> midnight
We go Lunchy at Sushi King., spend Rm50.50
Then walk2... He buy a cap for me, spend Rm29.90 (like it so mucH)
Then walk2... Survey about camera stuff & Hp...
Hungry alrdy, we dinner at Pappa Rich, spend Rm 50.50 also...haha ^^
Then walk2..& sit & wait for Our midnight Movie==>>Iron Man 2, spend Rm18

Thanks bi

i'm totally restless... RealLy restless...

Bus come at 6:30am..
depart from olD M$u at 7am &
reach there at 8am....

Nam..Yy..Maya..Suzein & I in a group, we are arranged to the Reptiles & Amphibians area...
haha,, there got crocodile, snake, tortoise, turtle, frog, iguana...& others...

1st,...we have sweep the floor at that area...take quite long time also to cleaned up all the leaves & rubbish..
10am -10.30 am is the short break,, we have round2 the zoo...
After that, we start a scary work, which is we cleaned up the crocodiles pond,,there are stay at the pond also... looking at us... But the instructor say they won't attack us, because they can recognize their smell....ohhh...I see...

,...we also feed the tortoise..there are so big.. this species is 2nd big in the world.

1pm-2pm is the lunch break,, we all eat McD chicken burger...

The only guy team is so tired, they in-charge the puma place,, have to take a lot kayu balak to make the new place for puma....

after lunch break, we have to continue our work...
~~ cangkul the tanah & prepared the place for crocodile lay the eggs...~~
i saw a lot cacing,,,so fat & long...i cut them also..Hehe^^
not to eat...just tension when i see that.....wahehehe....

4pm finish the work & we have half an hour to walk2,, & take pic..

Then 5pm we go back...
For me,, it is a meaningful work,, & a great experience... Thanks Guys....




XoXoXoXo,
€haNellE

Happy Mami Day

Happy mami day to my mom & my Godmom.. Thanks for everything that you giving me.
I know u Love me so much & Me too.
Sorry for my whatever that make u sad..disappointed..angry..tension...dulan & so on..
Please forgive me....because your daughter ---> ME,, is that kind of person.. :-)

I have the mami day dinner at Godmom house, my mom said it can cut cost, some more it is less MSG... Both my mamami prepare the food..it including:

* Butter prawn with Egg floSs *
* Sampal belacan PetAi *
* Salt sTeamed ChickeN *
* Broccoli mix mix vege*
* Tomatoes egg Soup *

This is so yumMy...no JokE

For the dessert, mama prepared at home & bring over there.. Got..

~ Mango pudding ~
~ Dragon-fruit JeLLy ~

&
Watermelon

Really full my stomach... like increase 5 KG alrdy....hahaha...
Anyway thanks.....Ermmuahhh... love u all.. :-*

...Thank$...

& i get a Big angpao frm my Goddaddy.... yaahoooooo.....


XoXoXoXo,
€haNellE

~ A sUpeR dUpEr mini TrIp ~

Wednesday, 07/04/2010 - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -> Sunny Day

I wake up at 8am & i start prepared myself because He said want give me a surprise. I'm so curious what actually it is.. & I dunno what i supposed to wear since i dont know where we will go. Then i keep asking,, at last He said we are going to Muzium Negara.

Nothing special right??? But actually this is the place i wanted to go long time ago.. Haha..thanks dear....I been KL almost 3 years alrdy & I never been Muzium Negara,,,it is such a shame .. >.<
At last.....wahaha

From 1st April to 20th June, there have the "CoFFin ExhibIti0N"

Once i enter there, is seem like scary, cause i see a lot different type, style, & shape of coffin. There also have show the orang asli skeleton & the 1 that give me a deep impression is the buffalo shape coffin===> Is unique....but i didnt take any coffin pic... Haha...

But i have take few pic from other area of the Muzium ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ >>>

Is about Portuguese conquer Melacca

Basikal Tentera Jepun--> YeAr 1941

CocOnuT

Kereta Bomba...

Is damn Hot...& I sitting rest a while

After Muzium then we go Sunway Pyramid to- - - ->>>
shopping .. buy his T-shirt & my Dress.. RM 90...HAha,, not i pay

buy movie ticket.. 11.30pm.. couple seat.. RM18..Haha,,not i pay


eat .. Canton-i.. RM48.60.. Haha,, not i pay

& walk walk.
Me long time didint watch movie at cinema alrdy, the last time was 27th Feb 2010 = > = > => A CNY movie.

<>......This is the latest movie i watch...is niCe & i like that kind of movie...fantasy... cartoony... pls go watch it....

Night Fury <= => Toothless

So sad is "Alice in Wonderland" i also haven watch....never mind, later i can download...


This poster looks funny, then i also act like the girl,,haha,,,, :-D

A lot ppl look at me when i do that....shame shame.. >.<

XoXoXoXo,
€haNellE

3 Day 2 NitE H0LidaY

Haha..I have a happy holiday with my classmate & little buddy from 1/4 to 3/4. Firstly, i want to thank Priya because she the 1 who start give an idea about this holiday & organize it. Beside that, also want to thank other fren2 - - - - - - - ->>>

my dear nam nam- manage all the money that we use & become treasurer
my dear ubi Hamdan- design & find contact about our team T-shirt

FrIenshiP t-ShiRt

my dear kak Shakila- find the accommodation & prepare the BBq chicken
my dear abg Ray- bring the guitar & make the environment more joyful AND
others dear buddy who cooperate well.

The night before the trip i have went to ICT with ubi hamdan , ray, nam & sam..That place is very nice, i like the light decoration so much. & of course i take a lot of pic. Ubi say most pic also got me...wahaha...shame shame alrdy.
Dunno may be is the food problem or i too excited, i can't fall sleep at all. & i not feeling well...diarrhea, feel like vomiting, dizzy.

Around 7am lah, we depart from Perdana heading to PD....I was totally feel like want to die during the journey. God ahh..why want me suffer this?
& around dunno what time we reach PD alrdy. Since we only can check in at 12pm...then we go the Telok Temang,,,a beach

I not feeling well...later i will ok...

After check in, we choose our room & then priya, santhana & mosreena prepare the meehon fish-ball soup ===>> yUmMy. Then evybody also go rest.
In the evening, i have go walk walk near the beach. Is so windy..the lightning from far is so pretty.. & ubi, Yy, NanA, fan2, Ray & I take alot pic.

Is mE....iS Me....YeaH.. :-)

Sexy gile YyY....Nice T- sHirt

At night we have the BBq.. yeah yeah.... But i didnt eat much...the chicken is spicy....i gt stomachache also....still not feeling well lehh... :-(

Ray & Nam start the bbQ fire....Expert

BbQing chicKen & fiShbalL

After BqQ, we have so many photo section...snap snap snap only....& this is the best 1 loh..

"A famiLy phOto"

Haha,,,when on the way back to the apartment i have take a few weird pic ohh...all jump x3..

YyY tu lah paling tinGGi

SerOn0K tuE

Although everybody is tired, but we have follow the plan==>> Play the pOis0n boX...Haha....everybody also kena ohh...
Then Ray & fan2 got drink beer....fan2 after 1 botol start drunk ad....& she actually didnt do something abnormal...Just we all kutuk her...haha...
Ray very good...after she drunk,,,he got take care of her...
I also got drink abit only..but ubi hamdan got do muka marah pulak....Don't lah,,,,i not always drink also...Hehehehee...

Next morning,I wake up at 8am... nam, nana & I prepared the breakfast..eg, eggs sandwich, potatoes sandwich, sardine sandwich & mushroom soup. But the soup is wasted cause cannot finish.. >.< ......Is Too MUCH food...... Then rest a while..taught want to play ball, but every1 complain is very hot, So i just wait only. Priya , Santhana, & Mosreena start prepared the lunch.... But i didnt eat ohh, because is very spicy to my level...Aduihh.... We also got play pOker cArd....is fun... But Ray main tipu,,Cause Si ubi HamDan curi see my card & tell RAy...that why he will win...& i become the donkey 4 the 1st round....

Play p0Ker CaRd

During evening time we got play "volley ball" ....Go0d TeaM....
Me, UbI haMdan & fan2 VS NanA, YyY & Ray
I very bad loh...because i keep hit the ball go far away, then pity ray have to go take the ball...haha...sorry,,is not my fault....is the wind problem... :-p

my pose so "yeng"

Ray hit the ball

YyY goooo....

PeRfeCt TeaM

UbI niCe posr

After volleyball then we go to Telok Temang & mandi laut... So happy ohh....
play water,, chasing abg Ray,, cover fan2 body with sand( lucah lucah) haha
So sad that we dont take any pic of it since everybody also want play water & no1 want to take care the bag....Never mind~~~~

Nam not here,,she the 1 take this pic..TQ

All is holding hand, wave is coming

After back to apartment, I got headcahe very bad...at my right hand side,,,so painful..cant really sleep well also...but then i also go night market walk walk with them...wahaha...then no more headache alrdy.. >.<

YumMy YumMy...

All memBerS...

After activity everybody also tired liao...then go sleep... Unfortunately, when i want to go upstairs sleep that time, the door is lock..& i cannot enter the room.. I didnt wake them up to open the door,, is late alrdy... Then i just sleep downstairs only...So pity...very cold,,no blanket.. :-( Lucky i got my Ah bei... :-)

My LoVely Ah beI

Pity mE...sleEp at downstairs only

Wake up in the next morning..,pack thing go Shakila house & next destination- ->> A'FamosA water World.

Me & fan2 so boring then we play the ball while waiting the owner take back the key. Then we make the ball fall to longkang ad...yeee,,,so smelly...haha,,lucky got nam help us take the ball...Thanks Mak.... :-p

Naughty daughters & GoOd Mum

Around dunno wat time we reach the water park alrdy..

Me hide at behind of them

After water park then we plan want to go Melacca Town walk2....but actually no one know the way...hehe....we so Geng ohh...Then i call Gini...Du...Tyc to ask the way go Dataran Pahlawan...
We have sesat jalan ohh....But at last we manage to reach there....hehe...
Then a lot photo section begins... these are some of them:- - ->>>

Nam <==> Hang Jebat

Abg Ray V poSe

CowboY & CowgirL

Black & White Hat

Train section

After that , we have our dinner.... Kosher VS Non Kosher.....



Around dunno what time then we start drive back to Shah Alam... got road block damn jaming...
reach Shah Alam around 1am....ohhh...very tired but happy...
Next time plan to go other place.... take care everybody.. Ermmuahh. :-*


XoXoXoXo,,
€haneLLe